Well currently the trending topic of the day is for international woman's day. Which is #Dearme: a note to my younger self. There is a lot I would tell my younger self, there is so much, and here is what I would tell young Shema.
Dear Young Shema,
Confidence: Young Shema confidence is key in every thing you do, It okay to dream but sometimes don't keep the dreams to yourself. You have Ideas and it's okay express them, own them and believe in them. Speak up more don't be afraid to say what is on your mind, look people square in the eye when you are talking to them.
Trust yourself: Stop seeking validation from everyone to do what you want to do, it's your life if your not ready for college don't beat yourself up and let others make you feel guilty for your decisions. And speaking of decisions they are yours to make, its okay to get a perspective from someone else, however don't let them persuade you into what their fears are and sike yourself out from giving something a try. Always trust your instincts no matter what happens. I don't care how good someone may paint a picture, If you see something wrong with the picture then believe in what you see. And never let anyone talk you into doing something that you don't want to do.
Live: Be outgoing, be outrageous, be happy, live in the moment, enjoy the moment. It's okay to be a loner when needed and it's also okay to be around others as well. And be around like minded individuals like yourself, that has a path and journey of their own. Don't surround yourself with negative people, because eventually they will bring you down.
Work for it: Nothing comes without comes with out hard work and dedication, you have to work for it. Don't give up on your ideas, even if you don't have the money or the tools, still work to complete your ideas and goals. Keep writing and creating, use what you have until you can get whatever you need to fulfill your projects. Like I mentioned before surround yourself with like minded individuals, they can help you and you can help them as well. There is no such thing as over night success, anyone who has the career of their dreams. They had to work to get to their position it was not handed to them they put they self in that position because they believed in their craft and also their selves.
Last but certainly not least young Shema, your career may not start when you want it to, there is going to be a time place when it will happen and it will happen keep going.